Some friends just really get to know you, and those friends send me social media postings with comments and others sent me notecards with butterflies but never write on those notecards! Joni knows who she is, and Beth knows who she is, and they are both precious reminders of who I am and what I am doing in this world.
They know that I talk all of the time with other women about what transformation really is: painful, joyful, confusing, and more. And the butterfly in all of its stages represents transformation. The butterfly speaks to me in my work to empower, connect, and share wisdom with women of all ages. Transformation or change is healthy but it is also a little unnerving and disarming. And I have experienced it all as well.
A lot of my work has been with money, and I am just realizing how I have changed in my latest stage of morphing from a caterpillar to a chrysalis and almost a butterfly with money. And with every stage of that transformation and more than one transformation I was not alone. Many years of work through meditation, spirituality, formal financial training, and more have led me to a program I began 323 days ago and will finish on December 20th. It has made the most impact of anything on me partially because I had done years of work before I began this current exercise. It came from an Esther Hicks Youtube episode and I thought I would try it. You see, everything you read about, hear about, and learn about will not stick for everyone, but I now know I was ready for this and off I went with pen and paper and a calendar so I would remember to do the exercise at first daily, and then weekly which I still do. It took my mind off of the anxiety and worry of money. As an entrepreneur I really depend on my clients and their cash flow to keep my cash flow flush. And that is not always easy. Mentally, I knew how to handle the inconsistency and spiritually I knew that my Higher Power always worked me through to good conclusions, but emotionally I was sometimes a nervous wreck when it came to money in my life.
But this last year has seen me go through many ups and downs and I now go with the flow knowing I will be ok. And I have grown, but really this is the other side of this whole butterfly thing: you are never really done growing and you will never get it perfect because you are never really done. I have a lot of folks I follow who provide inspiration for me: Esther Hicks, Tama Kieves, Marianne Williamson, Oprah, Wayne Dyer lives on, and Simon Sinek with his Infinite Game. My life is not a short term game, not a definite game where someone has to win, but it is an Infinite Game where I keep flowing with Life knowing that there is no winner but I win every day that I live my life to be the best I can be that day, and that, my friends, is my transformation, and, yes, I will still have growing pains. Thank you to Beth for this morning’s post!