And I do believe in energy. You are a powerful being; you can turn negativity into positivity but only if you want to! A quiet mind can start out as a noisy mind and with your control of your energy you can make the transformation. How? Well first of all observe your feelings in the moment. Can you acknowledge the feelingsthat you are allowing? That is what you are controlling. If you want to change, you can through your own thoughts and actions. It is not always easy, but it is possible!
The Buddhists named “monkey mind”! Think about it. Monkeys flitter from one tree to another possibly mindless of what they really are seeking. I cannot say that I know what they are thinking, but I can admit that when “monkey mind” is occurring, it is an abundance of brain activity, too much thinking, that now drives me to STOP IT!
And it does take practice. It is especially bothersome when it is about money; it appears as confusion and indecisiveness. It is about decision making, and money decisions are not always easy. In fact, for many, they appear to be elusive! Why? For one of many reasons, but for whatever the reason, and each reason can be remedied once identified, it is feelings that have taken over: fear, jealousy, revenge, love, desire, and more. Put the feelings in place at that moment, and you have started down a path to make easier money decisions and you are beginning to know you want financial freedom!
Meditation this morning yielded so much to me on this April 1st…usually known as April Fools Day, but not this year. This year April is unknown, but to me it is starting with a new mantra: We are EMPOWERED, We are CONNECTED, We are Wise Women…
Hope is running rampant, and Hope is where my strength resides. Insecurity is gone, and I know now that insecurity is the greatest killer of hope, not knowing is tough. But I know where my strength comes from: it comes from every woman who has been a part of my life, and it comes from my total history!
Spending time working with HOPE this week has been empowering and connecting for me. I am into the deepest revision of my book SET THIS BUTTERFLY FREE. I am totally taken by the subject matter of freeing women from anxiety with money. It is refreshing to feel the way I did when I started working with the energy of money!
And the message from Sprit this morning–We are EMPOWERED, We are CONNECTED, We are Wise Women–totally fed my energy and my passion and gave me the next steps of where I am going at this moment.
But more than that, it reawakened my gratitude, my joy, my enthusiasm, and it gave me peace…WE ARE WISE WOMEN AT PEACE…
So sad that when we are born we are 100% prepared for the world, and then the world’s people step in and pepper our brains, our emotions, our psyche with their tainted ideas of the world. We learn from all around us what will become our physical foundation of what will become our lives including everything good and bad from those around us. This morning the phrase “we don’t have money for that” resonates in my monkey mind. It did not matter what the need, and most of the times it was a need and not a want, there was not enough for it. I have worked for years to learn and to overcome and earn “enough”. I still struggle no matter what the reality is. The brain joins the battle, but the stomach churns in as well, and I am one hot mess when faced with spending a large amount of money for a need, not a want. But the quiet butterflies of transformation appear with calming wings unfurled, and once again, reality and rationality try to balance out the monkeys and move me to the next step…
Radiate serenity and peace and you will empower others to do the same as you empower yourself to be peaceful and serene. I can tell you that the last few days have been enough to begin any number of bad habits had it not been for the recent Spiritual Maintenance break I took and worked on intention and love. It has been remarkable how many issues have resolved themselves including 24 hours of IMAP problems not only with my Mac but also with my iPadand iPhone, but serenity took over and resolutions occurred one by one. Exhausted but serene, I am intending to find peace in this month of busy days and nights. Empowerment comes in many ways, but it never arrives at your door with a big red bow. It sneaks into your soul after a harrowing day and brings you peace for the new day that arrives!
What are we always looking for, hoping for, and grateful for? Serenity is my answer. It may be yours, as well, but there is nothing as fresh as new fallen, and still falling, snow! I am so grateful that this is the view from my window. With so much activity in my business, it is a beautiful day when nature takes over literally and allows us to stop and think about pure beauty. I have to laugh when I posted this on social media this morning and right away someone came back and said warmer temperatures and sun would be better! Well, life gives you what you need, and that is all I can say. In the last weeks, I have slowed down considerably as we recover from a failed event in October and the wonderful planning for 2020 that is occurring. Source gives us what we need. I needed the snow to remind me that life is peaceful when we allow it to be. And when we allow what we need we move forward with a serene heart and a head that is calm and peaceful. If snow is not what you need, be patient, and Source will send whatever it is that you need soon if you are in alignment with the Universe.
When I first envisioned EMPOWER Excellence and designed the logo of the energy circle when working with money, there was a gap in the center of the circle. Really, a big blank space, and I meditated and asked for guidance from my Inner Being. The answer came and was influenced by all of the metaphysical and spiritual books and work I had done in past years. The circle had to have a butterfly because the butterfly is a symbol of transformation as depicted in the above graphic. I had seen fantastic creative artwork in various mediums like the metal sculptures in the gardens of The Gathering Space in northeast Ohio, visiting butterfly gardens, knowing the transition from a caterpillar to the actual beautiful butterfly, this was the choice for the symbol of the transformation of energy that all of us must go through to make any change in our life, but ti also had to do with the power of the butterfly wings. When change is pursued, minds can fill with monkey mind chatter. Thinkingof butterfly wings and their quiet flapping that makes changes throughout nature made all of the sense in the world to choose the peaceful butterfly rather than any other option. Let the butterfly of any color and size accompany you as you become EMPOWERed!
Making changes in your life is hard. We get used to doing the same things all of the time until we know we have to stop and that it is time to transform. Water, living near Lake Erie, has always been an important part of my life with beach walking and collecting beach glass. And then I moved a half hour away from the lake to Oberlin, Ohio where there is no body of water. I stopped making the trip to Lake Erie probably because of time, but my Higher Power can conspire against me until I realize something is not right and that something was everything that could go wrong with water flowing into my life broke. I talked about that yesterday. So I felt compelled to change beginning today, I am making the time to go to the Lake as often as possible. More than that, a book I read years ago THE HIDDEN MESSAGES IN WATER by Masaru Emoto was availableat the Oberlin Public Library. So that is tonight’s reading. It is like a love letter to water to tell it that I treasure it as a part of my life. This morning I was at Lakeview Park at the East Beach for a nice part of the morning walking in the wind, following the massive flock of lake gulls as they took flight, settled in the water and returned to land when I had passed. It was a beautiful morning peaceful and quiet and the added touch was the massive rose garden they have at Lakeview. Yes, it was walking, yes, it was windy, yes, it was sunny, but more than anything the water knew I was there finding the peace and also finding the beauty of the roses and the gulls. I think water and I are going to be ok.
The last few weeks have successfully culminated in peace, but there was at least one or two unanswered questions that were bugging me.
One was finding the right spiritual community in Oberlin, and I was not finding success or peace in that quest. The second was why was “God” never included in the months of discussions leading to AWE.
And then this morning at an early hour, Joel Osteen’s “Your Wings Are Coming” was my first meditation to appear on YouTube. It answered both of the two questions and more. Joel spoke of the traditional caterpillar transformation into a butterfly, a much better version thanwhat had come with me in Empower Excellence in story and logo as a symbol of transformation.
While religion and more recently spirituality have been an important part of my life, in the months leading to the formation and reformation as AWE Ageless Women Emerging — an appropriate word for the caterpillar and butterfly–my then co-collaborator never once mentioned the word “God”. God witnessed the mental battle I went through on this situation. It was never absent as I softened any conversation about it. But it never went away “Why does she never talk about “God”? In the end, she mentioned God as providing me to her as her teacher. It was always about her needs when it was mentioned at the final moments of our partnership. “God” heard that battle, too. God is the force that worked by my side during the re-formation of AWW Ageless Women of Wisdom and AWE Ageless Women Emerging since the end of May. And I was talking aloud to God through it all, and it is movinglike the caterpillar in the cocoon. After that dark, uncomfortable time, I am emerging like the butterfly that has always been with me since the formation of Empower Excellence. It is what I have been meant to be, God had me in the palm of his hand, and I stayed in faith as AWE, AWW, and I are taking flight! There is no co-collaborator who had a hidden agenda now. God was listening all those months. Joel’s program this morning brought that out for me as well.
Joel Osteen’s “God” has been with me for years on Sunday morning, and I do believe I have found my virtual spiritual community. There is a divine calling for now to continue this in my life. As I have decided to remain in Oberlin, I will find more community with patience. Patience is in my heart, and I had to smile when Kurty was visiting in Oberlin yesterday and he uttered “patience, Gram, Gram Jan”! He had no idea, but the divine utterance was duly noted by me.
So, this morning has been a memorable one, a peaceful one, and it will empower me to continue the path I am on. I am not alone for God, Source, The Universe are all with me. I was born to fly on that cold November morning years ago when I was inspired to create the Empower Excellence logo with the butterfly. I have always believed that everything I have been led to do in my life has been deliberate from God, Source, The Universe in order for me to continue to fly above new fields of possibility and wonder. And my wings are still coming in the forms of other caterpillars and butterflies for AWE and AWW are not just a program, they are a movement with God, Source, and The Universe at our side. It is the beginning of a Servant Leadership Movement for all ages “ageless” of “women” to share their “wisdom” throughout the coming years. It is not “girl power” or that “the future is female”, it is serving each other in an effort to be leaders of all genders, all children of God!
As a side note to the movement mention, there is a conversation in the planning with a woman who entered my life in a small way in the past years who is seeing her dream take wings over this past week as her dream of a living resort “Monarch” in Ohio received final local zoning approval. AWW is intentioned to begin offering overnight retreats in 2021 as “Monarch” becomes a reality for another butterfly servant leader. And the movement of servant leadership really begins as well with the first gathering on this past Wednesday of 10 women of AWE who began their discussions of sharing their wisdom this Summer and Fall. Be careful where you walk: the caterpillars are on the move!
And caterpillars as they leave their cocoons do not walk, they catapult into flight!
To my knowledge, there are few butterfly disagreements. Deepak Chopra speaks of a book where there is competition, but that is a rarity! Butterflies are fairly solo creatures but they can travel together. That could be a source of disagreement. But then they have a short lifespan, and many will agree that disagreements come from knowing others too well and knowing how to push buttons to start an argument. If you avoid conflict, as an individual like you and me, you can start a war within yourself. Keeping the peace always brings with it a price to pay within your head, your heart, and your soul. Better to learn a peaceful way to bring conflict to the surface while it is small and recent than to let it fester within yourself to create an epic war within yourself, and then it becomes everybody’s war later.