Thanksgiving comes but once a year, but in essence it can be every day when we are thankful for so many people and things that are taken for granted. Gratitude is a part of my daily meditation and living in the NOW. I know I am grateful for my two sons every day that they are healthy and that they have a healthy outlook most days. I am grateful for my two grandsons who bring love and laughter to everything we do together. I am grateful for my daughter in law for her gift of the “little people” to this world. Always, I am grateful for my sisters and their families because they are what constitutes my solid ground and they are now bringing new people into the fold with two nieces who have each had a little boy over the past year and a new daughter in law on their part with an upcoming wedding. But I am also grateful for my home in Oberlin and the ability to live where I feel a part of a quietly intelligent community that feels like “home”. And that is important as I continue growing my livelihood and pursue my writing. I am on my path of intention. I am always grateful that I am fully aware and comfortable that Source is with me and I am part of Source for that is where all to be grateful originates from…and that gratitude is every day including thanksgiving.
Every moment is beautiful, but a beautiful mind is simply a blessing! Even before the first cup of coffee, the mind awakens and begins to find the intention for that day. Spirit quickly joins, and it takes a heck of a lot of bad noise from any one to make the day and the mind less than beautiful. Contrary to the movie “Groundhog Day” each day can be beautiful and different and can lead to a celebration for each moment that you are alive. When I say that, I have just learned that my first friend in Oberlin has passed away. As controversial a character as he was he befriended me even if it was for his own personal monetary gain. He was a gentle soul, and I will always remember David Gibson that way.
Connecting your soul to nature is free but the time to do the connecting is priceless. I can look out by window to a whole yard full of trees. I can walk into Oberlin and see flowers, trees, birds, and breathe the fresh air. I can drive 30 minutes and reach Lake Erie, walk in the sand, feel the lake breeze whisper across the water and the beach, and observe the lake gulls doing their best to stay out of my way. Connecting to nature is precious in whatever way you choose. But the first step is always the hardest with our busy lives. Do it anyway!
A long, long time ago on a Sunday evening in Westlake, Ohio, I first experienced deep breath work which is literally intentionally practicing our breathing. Deep breath work shifts you into another state, often through a form of catharsis. The belief is that the trauma will only come forward during a session if it is necessary for healing, and it can only unfold as the session progresses. Well, the trauma did need healing and it was a welcome catharsis for it took me back into intrauterine time and the difficulty my mother had during her pregnancy with me. My mother died in 2005. And then the water incidents began to really happen. Before that I was always afraid to put my face in water, but I had learned to accept that after the deep breath work as the intrauterine experience was like drowning. But for the past 10 plus years water constantly poses situations for me.
I cannot tell you why but I can tell you that broken pipes in ceilings began in about 2010 in my Edward Jones office, a few years later in my townhome in Westlake, in 2018 it has become problematic with a total wooden floor in my Oberlin home being destroyed by water, about four water main breaks in the last year or so on Route 58 where I live, two of which were last week, kitchen sink drains becoming dislodged and flooding my cupboard, the dishwasher not liking the water temperature, bathroom sink plungers becoming inoperable, and 48 hours ago a three year old water tank needing to be replaced which uncovered all kinds of water problems that were not discovered until the water tank.
I have a very strong metaphysical background and consulted with a wise metaphysician this morning. The suggested solution is that I have to let water of all kinds know that I love it. The irony is that before Oberlin I was a regular visitor to Lake Erie for meditation and beach glass collecting. But I have only been once since I moved to Oberlin in 2017. That will change tomorrow when I begin to visit the lake again. It is the only thing that makes sense at this point. Water and I have to become friends.
There is a strong pull within me to slow down and re-examine my businesses brought on my Jackie B’s gift of rebranding to me recently. With that comes a re-examination of my life, and I am welcoming that because I no longer need to get better with what my craft of money energy is for that is just fine but it is probable that I need to get braver. What is need to do is to shift from working with clients who have money issues to people who have money and need the right professionals to make it do what they want it to do. Makes perfect sense to me. “Drowning in money problems” is not who I help. I help those who are ready to walk into the water and love money for what it is for them.
Simply put, this is the week that Oberlin students–new and returning–descend upon the campus. Returning students have much wisdom to share with the new students. And it is needed! But in the total picture it is amazing to walk Tappan Square to see the Fall Emergence of nature…it is a reminder that everything regenerates, no matter the season. Within a few weeks there will be the shedding of leaves for both nature and the newer students. It is an an AWEsome time to be in Oberlin and everyone joins in…retail, public servants, and nature, the wisest of all!
You are living in your own emotional climate, and only you can change it. Without rehashing all that has happened in my life this year, I know of what I speak. This morning has been an eye opener even before I stepped out of bed. My meditation was inspired by an online topic of “emotional climate” and how to change that, which I have been in the process of doing in many ways since June. Try a morning walk through your neighborhood, small town, or city. My eyes took over my brain taking me places I had been many times but for the first time seeing them through loving eyes. More blogs will include other photos my heart took this morning. But AMA TU VIDA, this year’s community chalk art is still as beautiful as June when it was created. “Love Your Life” is the translation, and it gave me goose bumps. Where can you go in your area where you can walk, where you can stroll, and where you can capture what you love about your life?
As we approach the transition of AWE Ageless Women Emerging, and the last summer conversation this week, we are moving toward AWW AGELESS WOMEN OF WISDOM. I needed this transition to reach this point. I needed to let go of all that happened in the past in order to lead participating women through this transition, to help them see through new eyes what they love and what they want to change. I am shaken by what I felt.
What do you need to do for you to change your emotional climate? To see through new eyes? To feel goose bumps again in your life? Please take a walk and see what happens…May you also say AWE when you do! I went from planning a move FROM Oberlin to LOVING OBERLIN anew…you, too, can change the Emotional Climate of your life.
The last few weeks have successfully culminated in peace, but there was at least one or two unanswered questions that were bugging me.
One was finding the right spiritual community in Oberlin, and I was not finding success or peace in that quest. The second was why was “God” never included in the months of discussions leading to AWE.
And then this morning at an early hour, Joel Osteen’s “Your Wings Are Coming” was my first meditation to appear on YouTube. It answered both of the two questions and more. Joel spoke of the traditional caterpillar transformation into a butterfly, a much better version than what had come with me in Empower Excellence in story and logo as a symbol of transformation.
While religion and more recently spirituality have been an important part of my life, in the months leading to the formation and reformation as AWE Ageless Women Emerging — an appropriate word for the caterpillar and butterfly–my then co-collaborator never once mentioned the word “God”. God witnessed the mental battle I went through on this situation. It was never absent as I softened any conversation about it. But it never went away “Why does she never talk about “God”? In the end, she mentioned God as providing me to her as her teacher. It was always about her needs when it was mentioned at the final moments of our partnership. “God” heard that battle, too. God is the force that worked by my side during the re-formation of AWW Ageless Women of Wisdom and AWE Ageless Women Emerging since the end of May. And I was talking aloud to God through it all, and it is moving like the caterpillar in the cocoon. After that dark, uncomfortable time, I am emerging like the butterfly that has always been with me since the formation of Empower Excellence. It is what I have been meant to be, God had me in the palm of his hand, and I stayed in faith as AWE, AWW, and I are taking flight! There is no co-collaborator who had a hidden agenda now. God was listening all those months. Joel’s program this morning brought that out for me as well.
Joel Osteen’s “God” has been with me for years on Sunday morning, and I do believe I have found my virtual spiritual community. There is a divine calling for now to continue this in my life. As I have decided to remain in Oberlin, I will find more community with patience. Patience is in my heart, and I had to smile when Kurty was visiting in Oberlin yesterday and he uttered “patience, Gram, Gram Jan”! He had no idea, but the divine utterance was duly noted by me.
So, this morning has been a memorable one, a peaceful one, and it will empower me to continue the path I am on. I am not alone for God, Source, The Universe are all with me. I was born to fly on that cold November morning years ago when I was inspired to create the Empower Excellence logo with the butterfly. I have always believed that everything I have been led to do in my life has been deliberate from God, Source, The Universe in order for me to continue to fly above new fields of possibility and wonder. And my wings are still coming in the forms of other caterpillars and butterflies for AWE and AWW are not just a program, they are a movement with God, Source, and The Universe at our side. It is the beginning of a Servant Leadership Movement for all ages “ageless” of “women” to share their “wisdom” throughout the coming years. It is not “girl power” or that “the future is female”, it is serving each other in an effort to be leaders of all genders, all children of God!
As a side note to the movement mention, there is a conversation in the planning with a woman who entered my life in a small way in the past years who is seeing her dream take wings over this past week as her dream of a living resort “Monarch” in Ohio received final local zoning approval. AWW is intentioned to begin offering overnight retreats in 2021 as “Monarch” becomes a reality for another butterfly servant leader. And the movement of servant leadership really begins as well with the first gathering on this past Wednesday of 10 women of AWE who began their discussions of sharing their wisdom this Summer and Fall. Be careful where you walk: the caterpillars are on the move!
And caterpillars as they leave their cocoons do not walk, they catapult into flight!
June 21 is a memorable day for many reasons: an anniversary of a marriage long ended and an anniversary of six years of a marriage still growing. One has been released and the other is still being welcomed! But it is the longest day of the year, and it is a beautiful time here in Oberlin, Ohio. The Sun has been with us three days this week, and it is welcoming the Summer season, a season of light that is burning bright within me. It is a time to welcome many changes: one of which is the verbal recognition that I am happy here in Oberlin. Another major change is allowing others to be in my life, to accept offers of help, to bring others into my life simply and easily, to relish the time spent with loved ones and to release all negativity. It is also a time to release worry for all things work for the good. All in all, it is a time to release people and things that have outlived their reason to be in my life. I came to Oberlin for many reasons, and I will stay in Oberlin for many more. It is a place where my soul feels warmth and a glow of growth. No more need for constant change, just a need for constant growth. And it begins with the first day of Summer, a glorious first day of Summer!
Sometimes I find that I cannot help myself. I am a servant leader, and many do not understand that at all. Why am I not totally in business just to make money? Over the years in government, financial services, and now self employed in financial services, networking organizations, and women’s empowerment in the world, I do find that I have lost myself in the service of others. It is a very meaningful place to be, and I do believe that it has created troublesome situations at times for me. It is rare that a potential partner in business really is looking for a venture that is simply there to help others. They may say that at times, but you have to listen very closely to their other wishes–wanting to make it big so that they have all the money they need. It is very interesting because I understand that, but I also know that I have the perfect partner to be a servant leader…Source. I have always wanted to make a difference for others which also makes a difference for me. I have so much in the way of good mental health, good physical health, good spiritual health, good healthy food, safe housing blessed with nature, and more. I am coming out of my two year plus hiatus of discovery in Oberlin, and I am being guided by Source with patient hands onto a path that is made expressly for me. The path is winding and interesting, and I know not where it will lead, but so far, it is feeling very good. Oberlin is a town of servant leadership for many, and Source took its time with a guiding hand to open my eyes this year in the realm of “true” friendship, deception, misguided loyalty, and natural disasters. All led me to where I am today committed to being a successful servant leader doing unto others what I would like to have in community: friendship, wisdom, love, and abundance. And I have the ability to help others find that along my path !
Juneteenth and the Maafa Memorial Service has had a real effect in me and served as a reminder why I originally moved to Oberlin. Juneteenth commemorates June 19th, 1865, with the final State of Texas abolishing slavery. Maafa is the Black Holocaust or Holocaust of Enslavement. The flag flies above my words. Oberlin really celebrates this annually. Last night was a true community picnic where the Oberlin Community Services, with the help of grants serves a total rib and chicken dinner to all who want to attend. There is no requirement or qualification. It is held on Tappan Square, and everyone reflects the spirit of Oberlin, as mixed as it may be. It was then followed by the Maafa Memorial Service at Westwood Cemetery. It all was moving, and it followed a memorable week for Oberlin and for me. The two-year court proceeding of Gibson’s against Oberlin College moved a giant step forward. If that is of interest to you, regional media covered it. For me, after six months of emotional chaos, I came home to Oberlin emotionally, socially, and physically. I did in fact come home just in time to focus on the first event of AWE Ageless Women Emerging, ironically on June 19th. This may well be my forever home where values are still important to so many!