I love the color orange in nature! And the above sentiment from Richard Rohr is a favorite. Many months have passed since a former friend blamed God for our ending since she had prayed to God for me to be her teacher to grow her business. She left one thing out: she never ever shared that prayer to God with me. Ironic, since for many months before our separation I had my misgivings with her because she was not aware of God in her life while God was with me all of the time! So what brought this up many months later? Joel Osteen, one form of God in my life, and there are many. His talk this morning talked of God removing toxicity from our lives. God delivered me out of the relationship as he saw that she was an imposter–we had agreed that our work together was not based on our current work separately but something new. Her periodic prayers exposed her betrayal. God served as my doorkeeper because of my longtime relationship with my Inner Being in all parts of my life. God took her out of my life, and I moved on without hesitation because God was there. God had the final say, God is always with us when we are aware of God. Her betrayal continues in small ways…but God and I can see her betrayals.
There are many sources of inspiration, and I tend to absorb as much as I can whenever I can. Joel Osteen is one of those sources. In 2018 he talked about “Next Level Thinking” and I would like to share his thoughts with you.
- Be a Barrier Breaker
- YOU ARE FULLY LOADED
- The odds are for you
- Move up to the next level
- Recognize your value
- Live with the Boldness of a son
- Know you are loved
- Approve of yourself
- Get the contaminants out
- Remove the Shame
Yesterday, I spoke of Mercury Retrograde and Stories…and the one thing I have learned about women’s stories is compassion. Three of my favorite authors in my teens and young adult years were Sylvia Plath, Anne Frank, and Ayn Rand. Very different women, very different stories: one lived in the prison of mental illness, one lived in the prison of the Nazi rule in World War II, and one lived in her own prison rejecting the norms of her day. And yesterday, I witnessed Eugene O’Neill’s LONG DAY’S JOURNEY INTO NIGHT sharing the issues of a mother’s longstanding drug addiction, it’s own prison. All about women, all about their stories.
Moving into more current years, Oprah has been an advocate of women’s stories for years. Her current book THE PATH MADE CLEAR is different and is subtitled “Discovering Your Life’s Direction and Purpose”. It is a treasure telling short blurbs about many women and men. I say “About” because they are in the words of the players and talk of purpose and more. That truly is written from the heart; they are their stories in very short form. Elizabeth Gilbert, Bishop T.D. Jakes, Carolyn Myss, Deepak Chopra, Ellen Degeneres, Pema Chodron, Cheryl Strayed, Thomas Moore, Iyanla Vanzant, Joel Osteen, Mitch Albom, Michael Bernard Beckwith, Debbie Ford, Michael Singer, Gary Zukav, Brne Brown, Marianne Williamson, Mindy Kaling, Shonda Rhimes, Eckhart Tolle, Father Richard Rohr, Jon Bon Jovi, Gloria Steinem, Thich Nhat Hahn, Lynne Twist, President Jimmy Carter, Jack Canfield, and more, but all that I have learned their stories through their books and their music. Most are labeled “New Age”, “New Thought”, and “Whoo Whoo”.
And it is new thought, new age…the past several decades have brought some very positive change, but we are now into year three of some very dark times including potential Constitutional challenges. The top percentage of the wealthy are ruling directly or indirectly. The authors I have named above are not Constitution writers, they are writers of life, of optimism, of hope, of kindness, of freedom of the most basic kind. They seek to free many from their own personal prisons. These are the folks who have been capturing the hearts of America for many years–quietly and effectively. They have not been seeking to necessarily capture the hearts of corporate America although many have touched the hearts of corporate America. Be cautious in discounting their reach in Election 2020. Many of us discounted the speaker of MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN in 2016, and it is time to open the “prison” doors of traditional thinking. MAKE AMERICA KIND AGAIN. Start with you, start with your story, each and every person, especially each and every woman. Hate is not working, Love can work! AWE
The last few weeks have successfully culminated in peace, but there was at least one or two unanswered questions that were bugging me.
One was finding the right spiritual community in Oberlin, and I was not finding success or peace in that quest. The second was why was “God” never included in the months of discussions leading to AWE.
And then this morning at an early hour, Joel Osteen’s “Your Wings Are Coming” was my first meditation to appear on YouTube. It answered both of the two questions and more. Joel spoke of the traditional caterpillar transformation into a butterfly, a much better version than what had come with me in Empower Excellence in story and logo as a symbol of transformation.
While religion and more recently spirituality have been an important part of my life, in the months leading to the formation and reformation as AWE Ageless Women Emerging — an appropriate word for the caterpillar and butterfly–my then co-collaborator never once mentioned the word “God”. God witnessed the mental battle I went through on this situation. It was never absent as I softened any conversation about it. But it never went away “Why does she never talk about “God”? In the end, she mentioned God as providing me to her as her teacher. It was always about her needs when it was mentioned at the final moments of our partnership. “God” heard that battle, too. God is the force that worked by my side during the re-formation of AWW Ageless Women of Wisdom and AWE Ageless Women Emerging since the end of May. And I was talking aloud to God through it all, and it is moving like the caterpillar in the cocoon. After that dark, uncomfortable time, I am emerging like the butterfly that has always been with me since the formation of Empower Excellence. It is what I have been meant to be, God had me in the palm of his hand, and I stayed in faith as AWE, AWW, and I are taking flight! There is no co-collaborator who had a hidden agenda now. God was listening all those months. Joel’s program this morning brought that out for me as well.
Joel Osteen’s “God” has been with me for years on Sunday morning, and I do believe I have found my virtual spiritual community. There is a divine calling for now to continue this in my life. As I have decided to remain in Oberlin, I will find more community with patience. Patience is in my heart, and I had to smile when Kurty was visiting in Oberlin yesterday and he uttered “patience, Gram, Gram Jan”! He had no idea, but the divine utterance was duly noted by me.
So, this morning has been a memorable one, a peaceful one, and it will empower me to continue the path I am on. I am not alone for God, Source, The Universe are all with me. I was born to fly on that cold November morning years ago when I was inspired to create the Empower Excellence logo with the butterfly. I have always believed that everything I have been led to do in my life has been deliberate from God, Source, The Universe in order for me to continue to fly above new fields of possibility and wonder. And my wings are still coming in the forms of other caterpillars and butterflies for AWE and AWW are not just a program, they are a movement with God, Source, and The Universe at our side. It is the beginning of a Servant Leadership Movement for all ages “ageless” of “women” to share their “wisdom” throughout the coming years. It is not “girl power” or that “the future is female”, it is serving each other in an effort to be leaders of all genders, all children of God!
As a side note to the movement mention, there is a conversation in the planning with a woman who entered my life in a small way in the past years who is seeing her dream take wings over this past week as her dream of a living resort “Monarch” in Ohio received final local zoning approval. AWW is intentioned to begin offering overnight retreats in 2021 as “Monarch” becomes a reality for another butterfly servant leader. And the movement of servant leadership really begins as well with the first gathering on this past Wednesday of 10 women of AWE who began their discussions of sharing their wisdom this Summer and Fall. Be careful where you walk: the caterpillars are on the move!
And caterpillars as they leave their cocoons do not walk, they catapult into flight!
This is what AWE Ageless Women Emerging is all about. Women learning of their own power and how to access it. This has been an all-consuming thought in the last week since a new option of how to do AWE came to my attention. Nothing, but everything, changes. It is all in the delivery of AWE into the future. This is not meant to be an exclusive program, it must be inclusive. In the way it is currently formatted it is exclusive. There are costs of running programs as entrepreneurs. But there are ways to provide an inclusive program and to really bring everyone to the table who needs to be there. This is all about Business 101 and serious management introspection and skills. It really was a point of concern for many, many reasons, and at 4 a.m. this morning, Source, God, the Universe, and Joel Osteen all ganged up on me. I was restless, I was preoccupied, and I was tired of researching all of this and not coming to a conclusion, which, for reasons I cannot speak of this morning, and I am ok with that, cannot be finalized today, or tomorrow, or the next few days. But it is big. Source has been with me for days providing servant leaders along the way bringing new ideas to the forefront. They love AWE, and they are being quite supportive. And they have a expertise I have not let surface for years. God kept speaking to me that I was leaving something out of AWE. She spoke only in the way God does: gently but nagging. No rest from God. The Universe kept sending more expertise my way including people I have not yet met who really have knowledge to share: wisdom. That is it! AWE is all about wisdom, and yet more wisdom came my way of how to look at this program. I was ready to run to my room and take a very long nap…anything to find rest and peace. Sleep is good, it always is. I have a way of waking up around 2-4 a.m. for a bathroom run and then meditation. I knew I had to get more sleep at 4. My nose was running with allergies, and my one eye was strained from too much use over the last weeks. So up I got and found my way to Aleve–have not taken Aleve in weeks or months for anything, but I knew it would relax my total body for sleep. For my meditation partner this morning it was Joel Osteen with a sermon entitled “You Will Have What God Says You’ll Have”. I thought twice because here was God bringing the whole gang together to get me to listen and find peace, and I did. First Kings was his scripture of choice regarding “spiritual ears”. It was about “struggling”. It was about believing what was in my Spirit not in my mind; it was about faith. It was about accomplishing much. Things are about to turn. Be encouraged by what I feel and hear in my Spirit; what I see is subject to change. Oh yes, “subject to change”. “The path of the righteous gets brighter and brighter.” It was all about listening to what Spirit, Source, the Universe, and God have been sharing with me. Sprit is speaking about what is coming. Am I going to believe what I currently see or believe what “the gang of the Spirit” keeps sharing with me. And, I was at peace and off to sleep…AWE!
Whether it is EVOLUTIONARY ENLIGHTENMENT by Andrew Cohen, BECOME A BETTER YOU by Joel Osteen, INSPIRED & UNSTOPPABLE by Tama Kieves, THINK & GROW RICH by Napoleon Hill, or any one of hundreds of other books that I have read and loved over the years on the pathway to my dreams, they all have helped me to face and overcome my fears. Now, I try to stay away from fear-based concepts; but at times it is necessary to talk about fear, at least in a way that will help you put your fear behind you.
When you can do that–put your fear consciously behind you–you are beginning to transform! But no one really wants to consciously look in the mirror and face their fear. But not until we look in the mirror and really race the fear can we move on, through our transformation, and be on our path to our dreams.
Once you have looked into the mirror, faced YOU in that mirror, and talked to yourself not only about your dreams but also about your fears and how to begin overcoming those fears, then you are on your way to Transformation. And it is time to understand that there will be possibilities all along the way. It is time to not only embrace your fears and let them go but also to embrace all of the possibilities.
Until you do that, you will never know exactly where you are meant to be going. Remember, you were born with your dream. The fears came from life and living since the moment of birth. Facing and embracing possibilities helps you move in new directions. It helps you to be strong enough to take the risks that may present themselves.
Enter the world of new possibilities…
Allow your courage to come forth
and begin to
OVERRIDE YOUR FEAR!