In a recent effort to stay focused on Personal Sustainability, self-esteem has been a major topic. When you reach self confidence in this area, you are indeed a super power. Yes, magic does happen. Does it happen all of the time? No! Do people like and love you more? No!
What does happen is that the more self esteem and the more self confidence you have, the more many people look at you like you are living on the fringe. I try not to become involved in pettiness, gossip, etc. I also become a little more judgmental privately. I have very high standards, and those standards and values are not always shared. Throughout my career, I have been in unusual positions in government, politics, finances, and many times there may not have been standards and values evident to the naked eye. I was on the fringe back then, and I am still on the fringe today even in my own business. I live my life in the most ethical way I can, and my patience for those who are not honest, ethical, or living their values is very small. That is living on the fringe today.
I am currently purging much of my email and Facebook feeds. I simply want my time spent better, and I have found all of it has become addictive. My focus is on my personal and professional dedication to Personal Sustainability, and The Empower Excellence Experience is designed to do just that with spirituality, money, food, and chemical free living. I am trying, and it is hard, not to post anything that is negative in this regard: no politics, no Monsanto, no negative thinking, and I am succeeding. “Friends”, groups, and more are in the least being “unfollowed” or “unfriended”. Please do not take it personally, that is for me to do. My personal values are the measurement I am using as much as I can these days. And it is putting me on the fringe, I know that. But my self esteem and self confidence have been worked on for years. Earlier this week, the germination of the new me burst forth with multiple examples from the Universe on what I needed to work on: no more bullshitters allowed, no truth–no friend, no game players allowed, no rule breakers allowed, no audacious characters who feel privileged, and more. This is not easy, but it is where the Universe, my purpose and mission are leading me. Dreams have been lucid in their directions. Sleep has been plentiful and peaceful. The seed has been planted for this season; the seed has survived through many tests; and now the seed is germinated and moving on to the current creation of me. And I am grateful. Whatever is being left in the wake of this new birth is meant to be left behind. I transplanted myself to Oberlin, tested the soil, and I am now the new Oberlin me! There have been tests to go through for me to find my new way, and I am now on the path.
I have always been on the fringe, a little weird, a little odd, a little geeky, a little bit of an introvert appearing as an extrovert, a Mensa in a common person’s dress, and much more fringe type personas. But I am older now, I am happier now, and I am working toward the Personally Sustainable life I have envisioned for years. There is no time and no room for those who are not authentic, who are not true, who are fake, who are audacious, who are trying to beat the system. And there is no time for those who participate in negativity of any kind: political, values, life, and more. And it is not mine going forward to take any of these personalities to task. That is the role of The Universe, karma, and higher powers. Let me live my life on the mission and purpose that is mine, let me love my life, let me love all who cross my path, knowing that those who I do not wish to walk my path with will remove themselves quickly or The Universe will do it for them…and for me! And I am grateful for that!