Become Your Own Chief Vision Officer in 2020 … #free will #financial freedom #vision #empower #connect #share #your story

Merry Christmas from me as I am of the Christian tradition, and I am the Chief Vision Officer of what is soon to become Jan Litterst, LLC. And Christmas brings to our immediate attention with the message of Mary, Joseph, and Baby Jesus.

Talk about alternative thought and vision and wisdom before it was talked about in those terms, at lease as much as I know about that time. Let me take a few examples.

Mary, the Blessed Virgin, was all of that…a virgin, young, unmarried, and she listened to Spirit and had enough faith and self confidence to go along with the Holy Proposal to bear a child without sexual intercourse, to be with a man who was not her husband to father a child purported to be the Son of God. Wow! This is enough woo-woo to have a reality show today. But it was faith without social media and the press to tear her apart.

So then with all of this already in their minds and hearts and in Mary’s case, womb, they had to leave under government edict to travel to a foreign land. Off they went on their great adventure unquestioning in the dead of winter and no way to secure reservations. Transportation was a mule or donkey and from everything I had ever seen Joseph, the forever unquestioning gentle man, walked the whole way! And then with only a manger to call his bed, Baby Jesus was born without the benefit of a sterile hospital or even a midwife. And they all lived happily ever after, at least for a few decades.

But there was no free will, only a vision provided by the Angel who came to announce the Heavenly plans to Mary, a woman, of course. And Mary became the carrier of that Vision. How else could two sensible adults fulfill God’s Plan, and the rest is history. And now, today, with all that I have learned through metaphysics and other sources, we are born with a predetermined purpose. Yes, we are told we choose that mission of our own free will. But when we are born, for most of us, the rest of the world takes over, and the mission or purpose gets buried under what family, society, religion, culture expect of us. But then, for many of us, we are searching for our identities, for our purposes, for our missions. We begin to exercise free will. That starts early with toddlers and continues into the teen years. We know we have a right to self manifest but we do not use those terms. All of a sudden we begin to learn who we are, what is ours to do, and then a vision might appear.

So, our vision and free will comes from the past, and now with Christmas upon us, we never talk about the bravery of Mary and Joseph. We never talk about having a vision, fulfilling our purpose, and more as originating in our lives as the Christmas Story. Well, I am a fan of story telling. It is the way we really learn. It is the way we empower ourselves, it is the way we connect with others, and it is the way we share our wisdom. Through the empowerment, connection, and wisdom we learn about ourselves, about our free will, and we learn about financial freedom. And that is my purpose: to be a partner to women especially to realize and reach financial freedom for it is a vision for all to reach the ability to serve their purposes. When you realize financial freedom, free will can be exercised through all parts of your life. Financial freedom allows you to make your choices, live your purpose, and create the Personal Vision which will make you the Chief Vision Officer of your life. Baby Jesus came into the world so that we all might live a life that would expand the love of God and Spirit. Live your Vision!

What a phenomenal day! With God all things are possible…or not?

I love the color orange in nature! And the above sentiment from Richard Rohr is a favorite. Many months have passed since a former friend blamed God for our ending since she had prayed to God for me to be her teacher to grow her business. She left one thing out: she never ever shared that prayer to God with me. Ironic, since for many months before our separation I had my misgivings with her because she was not aware of God in her life while God was with me all of the time! So what brought this up many months later? Joel Osteen, one form of God in my life, and there are many. His talk this morning talked of God removing toxicity from our lives. God delivered me out of the relationship as he saw that she was an imposter–we had agreed that our work together was not based on our current work separately but something new. Her periodic prayers exposed her betrayal. God served as my doorkeeper because of my longtime relationship with my Inner Being in all parts of my life. God took her out of my life, and I moved on without hesitation because God was there. God had the final say, God is always with us when we are aware of God. Her betrayal continues in small ways…but God and I can see her betrayals.


Thank you to Dr. Keith Jordan for the title of this blog as it comes from his book THE PRACTICE. Today has been a very different day, one in which I learned very much about myself and how one more healing can make a difference. But let’s first talk about the title and the significance of the page number on which the title was found.

The title of the chapter found on page 111, “THE POINT OF NO RETURN” is when you realize you are one with all of creation. More significant in my mind is the page number. “111” symbolizes the principles of spiritual awakening and enlightenment, high energy, inspiration and intuition, self expression and sensitivity. Angel Number 111 is a message from your angels to be very aware of your persistent thoughts and ideas as these are manifesting quickly into your reality.

When you realize you are at the point of no return you give up control, you embrace the darkness, you embrace God. The black of the night sky represents the unknown, or the Dark Side to some. But all is unknown and intuition deepens in this darkness. On a day when the sky is blue and sunny, we are really experiencing an illusion, we are in a state of ignorance being comfortable, loved, and appreciated. We feel all is well, we are safe, but it is an illusion for behind the blue sky is the dark.

Today has been a phenomenal day for me as the blue sky was lifted and a healing for a remaining point of fear has occurred, and I am grateful. And I followed a suggestion that I randomly open the book THE PRACTICE and read whatever is on that page. Being a student of Dr. Keith’s book, this is a common practice because what you are supposed to have shared with you at that moment will appear, and appear it did. I reached the point of no return today.

Going with the Flow of Peace

The green of the grass, the leaves and wisps of trees beckons when you allow nature to move with you as you live in the moment. Sometimes you have so much to do that you just stop thinking about it and go with the flow of nature which really is the flow of peace. God and the Universe step in to make you stop when life gets too hectic. It is all about faith and believing that God only gives you what you can handle. You will never be finished and you will never be perfect because you will never be finished. These are the words of living in the NOW, join me in the FLOW of Peace.

I Already Know…You’re a Crow!

Oprah tells me this morning “you already know” …

And I say, “yes, I know”.

The crow in the boxwood tree outside my window echos “you already know” in crow! You know how a crow tells you …CROW CROW CROW. More like CAW CAW CAW, but you know he knows he is a crow, and now I know he knows he is a crow. And he knows I know…

And then in my morning meditation Richard Rohr tells me WHAT THE MYSTICS KNOW…”you already know” YOU KNOW YOU ARE ALREADY IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD…

What is it that Oprah, the crow, and Richard Rohr know without telling me…this is the awareness that I need to know…Who am I, what am I in the world?

I need to believe what is in my awareness of God and nature and worldly folks…My awareness finally speaks soft like Oprah, forceful like the crow, and wise like Richard Rohr…”Yes, I know…I am a healer unlike any other…God came with me into this world just like Oprah, the crow, and Richard Rohr and said to me “You already know!” Now, I can say freely “Yes, I know”!

Our AWEsome Home…Earth!

When we acknowledge that God is in the details of all we do, most recently in AWE, we must also acknowledge and share our values. Values cannot be kept secret. They are a part of who we are, and a value to begin with is our physical home, outside of our bodies, and that is the Earth. The Pledge of Allegiance to the Earth says it all…this is a value that I am committed to. Wrapped in universal love and compassion for all, here on Earth is where we dwell…this is all the environment we need to pledge allegiance to and in each of our own small ways we are appreciating and loving the Universe, the Earth.

Finding the God in AWE…

The last few weeks have successfully culminated in peace, but there was at least one or two unanswered questions that were bugging me.

One was finding the right spiritual community in Oberlin, and I was not finding success or peace in that quest. The second was why was “God” never included in the months of discussions leading to AWE.

And then this morning at an early hour, Joel Osteen’s “Your Wings Are Coming” was my first meditation to appear on YouTube. It answered both of the two questions and more. Joel spoke of the traditional caterpillar transformation into a butterfly, a much better version than what had come with me in Empower Excellence in story and logo as a symbol of transformation.

While religion and more recently spirituality have been an important part of my life, in the months leading to the formation and reformation as AWE Ageless Women Emerging — an appropriate word for the caterpillar and butterfly–my then co-collaborator never once mentioned the word “God”. God witnessed the mental battle I went through on this situation. It was never absent as I softened any conversation about it. But it never went away “Why does she never talk about “God”? In the end, she mentioned God as providing me to her as her teacher. It was always about her needs when it was mentioned at the final moments of our partnership. “God” heard that battle, too. God is the force that worked by my side during the re-formation of AWW Ageless Women of Wisdom and AWE Ageless Women Emerging since the end of May. And I was talking aloud to God through it all, and it is moving like the caterpillar in the cocoon. After that dark, uncomfortable time, I am emerging like the butterfly that has always been with me since the formation of Empower Excellence. It is what I have been meant to be, God had me in the palm of his hand, and I stayed in faith as AWE, AWW, and I are taking flight! There is no co-collaborator who had a hidden agenda now. God was listening all those months. Joel’s program this morning brought that out for me as well.

Joel Osteen’s “God” has been with me for years on Sunday morning, and I do believe I have found my virtual spiritual community. There is a divine calling for now to continue this in my life. As I have decided to remain in Oberlin, I will find more community with patience. Patience is in my heart, and I had to smile when Kurty was visiting in Oberlin yesterday and he uttered “patience, Gram, Gram Jan”! He had no idea, but the divine utterance was duly noted by me.

So, this morning has been a memorable one, a peaceful one, and it will empower me to continue the path I am on. I am not alone for God, Source, The Universe are all with me. I was born to fly on that cold November morning years ago when I was inspired to create the Empower Excellence logo with the butterfly. I have always believed that everything I have been led to do in my life has been deliberate from God, Source, The Universe in order for me to continue to fly above new fields of possibility and wonder. And my wings are still coming in the forms of other caterpillars and butterflies for AWE and AWW are not just a program, they are a movement with God, Source, and The Universe at our side. It is the beginning of a Servant Leadership Movement for all ages “ageless” of “women” to share their “wisdom” throughout the coming years. It is not “girl power” or that “the future is female”, it is serving each other in an effort to be leaders of all genders, all children of God!

As a side note to the movement mention, there is a conversation in the planning with a woman who entered my life in a small way in the past years who is seeing her dream take wings over this past week as her dream of a living resort “Monarch” in Ohio received final local zoning approval. AWW is intentioned to begin offering overnight retreats in 2021 as “Monarch” becomes a reality for another butterfly servant leader. And the movement of servant leadership really begins as well with the first gathering on this past Wednesday of 10 women of AWE who began their discussions of sharing their wisdom this Summer and Fall. Be careful where you walk: the caterpillars are on the move!

And caterpillars as they leave their cocoons do not walk, they catapult into flight!

AWE the Blog About AWE

This is what AWE Ageless Women Emerging is all about. Women learning of their own power and how to access it. This has been an all-consuming thought in the last week since a new option of how to do AWE came to my attention. Nothing, but everything, changes. It is all in the delivery of AWE into the future. This is not meant to be an exclusive program, it must be inclusive. In the way it is currently formatted it is exclusive. There are costs of running programs as entrepreneurs. But there are ways to provide an inclusive program and to really bring everyone to the table who needs to be there. This is all about Business 101 and serious management introspection and skills. It really was a point of concern for many, many reasons, and at 4 a.m. this morning, Source, God, the Universe, and Joel Osteen all ganged up on me. I was restless, I was preoccupied, and I was tired of researching all of this and not coming to a conclusion, which, for reasons I cannot speak of this morning, and I am ok with that, cannot be finalized today, or tomorrow, or the next few days. But it is big. Source has been with me for days providing servant leaders along the way bringing new ideas to the forefront. They love AWE, and they are being quite supportive. And they have a expertise I have not let surface for years. God kept speaking to me that I was leaving something out of AWE. She spoke only in the way God does: gently but nagging. No rest from God. The Universe kept sending more expertise my way including people I have not yet met who really have knowledge to share: wisdom. That is it! AWE is all about wisdom, and yet more wisdom came my way of how to look at this program. I was ready to run to my room and take a very long nap…anything to find rest and peace. Sleep is good, it always is. I have a way of waking up around 2-4 a.m. for a bathroom run and then meditation. I knew I had to get more sleep at 4. My nose was running with allergies, and my one eye was strained from too much use over the last weeks. So up I got and found my way to Aleve–have not taken Aleve in weeks or months for anything, but I knew it would relax my total body for sleep. For my meditation partner this morning it was Joel Osteen with a sermon entitled “You Will Have What God Says You’ll Have”. I thought twice because here was God bringing the whole gang together to get me to listen and find peace, and I did. First Kings was his scripture of choice regarding “spiritual ears”. It was about “struggling”. It was about believing what was in my Spirit not in my mind; it was about faith. It was about accomplishing much. Things are about to turn. Be encouraged by what I feel and hear in my Spirit; what I see is subject to change. Oh yes, “subject to change”. “The path of the righteous gets brighter and brighter.” It was all about listening to what Spirit, Source, the Universe, and God have been sharing with me. Sprit is speaking about what is coming. Am I going to believe what I currently see or believe what “the gang of the Spirit” keeps sharing with me. And, I was at peace and off to sleep…AWE!

The Source of AWE…SOURCE

The source of AWE is SOURCE…Plain and simple and ageless and true. I am moving so slow on this Saturday morning, and I am not trying to rush anything. While I have been on a nonstop schedule for weeks, yesterday and today was like a fast-moving train hitting the brakes, and it has taken more than 24 hours for this train to come to a stop. In the meantime, I have employed healthy eating, coffee with friends, nature even with the rain, and meditation. With the slowing-down process, good sleep came my way last night: 7 hours without moving (the sheets demonstrated that to me this morning), and then a meditation time. The body was totally in a state of gratitude, and so was I.

But being in that state, brought so much to the forefront of my mind. I found a one-minute meditation on God, which I consider my Source and the Universe. Kirk Nelson is a new found source on YouTube, and the following was a total inspiration this morning:

Science and religion have the same purpose…to describe reality.

Science tells us the Universe began with a big bang.

An unseen force caused the Universe to expand at the speed of light.

Scientists call this force Dark Energy because they don’t know what it is.

As you approach the speed of light, time slows down.

When you reach the speed of light, time stands still.

So there is an unseen force creating the Universe from a place where there is no time.

This is almost the very definition of God.

And God is love.

Share that love.


I needed that right at that moment. It was the reminder that God is Source, and the source of AWE, Ageless Women Emerging, has been with me since the moment of the Big Bang. I have been on my path for only several decades of the 14 billion years since the Big Bang. I am a newbie, and I have learned so much. But it has all been to bring me to today. I used to wonder what makes the difference in people’s lives. Yes, we can acquire intelligence, talent, and dedication. Many of us have had DESIRE that burns within us. In the beginning we are not always aware of what it is, but then further down the path, through perseverance and protection from Source, we “learn”. That is the key word “learn”. Through divine guidance we are directed toward learning the right tools for our purpose. We can become mentally proactive to search for what our mind, heart, and soul put on that path for us to choose. But the decision to learn, to acquire more and more knowledge, steers us away from those who think “Ignorance is bliss”. That phrase may be liberating, but it is not part of my life. I am on a path that keeps expanding, and it is exciting. But, like this morning, I needed to come back to my center, and my center is Source…I will never forget that. Because I am a part of the Big Bang I am a part of Source. Yes, I am part God, and that feels good right now and forever.

2019 is a Legacy Year

All of these actions are integral and great…BUT

There are more “ingredients “ still unknown to you; only known to your God. Your life path depends on you, but only God knows the total plan, and the only one who knows the next “ingredient “ to be introduced.

So, no matter where you are at this moment, it can all change!

In a moment, with, as Joel Osteen says, “BAM”, it is all different. God, gives the ingredients needed, and you are the chef 👩‍🍳 putting life together and moving moment to moment…with trust and faith, and peace of mind that your Legacy is only known to God.