Even a small spark can become more, like a fire. It is before 6 am on a Thursday in a very serene, happy week where I have found my times of helping inspire people. It does not always seem that way immediately as I am making sure that I am carefully teaching people how to treat me. This has been a time following the July 16th eclipse when change has been pushing me to be the spark am meant to be. I am setting fires quietly and I am seeing that I am slowly evolving in very obvious ways. My thinking is more clear, my responses more clear, and my intentions flowing well. The infinite or Source has been guiding me forever but now seems to be the time like lighting a match to start a fire, the spark from the match has caught the wood to become a fire! And a fire I am, not roaring but gentle to catch and provide not only warmth but light…I am a spark from the infinite burning bright to become the fire of my intended mission. Oh, yes, I am.
There are five elements in life: space, fire, air, water, and earth. No matter who you are and how you are influenced, you will be out of balance on your journey to where you are headed. Some will face imbalance more often than others, but the secret is to recognize when things are not quite right and how to get back into balance! Some may believe in Auyurveda or other methods of staying in balance. Some may just have the intuitive sense without a label. When you feel that something is not going quite right, you are the only one who can see the beginning signs. Pay attention to you, a foundation of self care, and move to make things right! You are heading for something BIG, not small, and YOU must be BIG to reach that goal and be mentally strong with money and all parts of your life!
Your life today is where you are. It does not matter what happened before today, and we do not know what tomorrow will bring. Even the lessons we learned in the past do not always hold truth for this moment and the now and the future. It is like a fire on the beach on a Sunday night…it burns brightly, it is romantic, and , unless tended constantly, it dies. In the words of Bruce Springsteen, “You can’t start a fire without a spark.” And that last spark probably died on Sunday night. It is time to start a new fire. After all, it is Monday, the day of beginnings every week. Mondays are hard. In fact, they can be down right difficult. But learning to love your life can be easier if you are happy with your life; the love will come; it always does, at least for a moment.
Money and happiness? Are they really linked? In some cases, they are. In some cases, they are not. Happiness stands apart from money. Yes, it helps to have money to be able to buy moments of happiness. But, if you do not love your life, happiness is pretty elusive no matter how much money you may have. And loving your life really needs to have you identify what strengths you have. And then to feel those strengths that are passions. A fire on the beach remains small until you care for it and see it grow! It is up to you to find the opening in life, as in the fire building, to make something small into something big. It is up to you to find the love and then be able to be happy with what you are, what you have, and what you want. Keeping it all in perspective allows you to stoke the fire not only to make it big but also to keep you warm. That is what happiness is…loving your life so much that it keeps you warm not only in the moment but in the next moment and the next…
It is no fun becoming healthier and healthier…what wine used to do, iced coffee now does–a real buzz and extreme energy! I love my life when I am living my life, when the walls come down. It is rare that I allow that because there is just so much to do all of the time. Do not get me wrong, there is balance in many areas, but I also love my entrepreneurial endeavors including Empower Excellence and Professional Women’s Connection groups. I love the fact that I am coming alive with the plans to move to Oberlin and all that is involved with that. And then, my small secret mission that I am on now for the next month. I love the fact that I will be attending the 30th Anniversary on June 1 of Leadership Lake County, one of my first creative expressions that will live on forever through the thousands of folks who have been affected by the many programs that the many have created because of that. I love that I am reconnecting with old friends for drinks and more. I love that I am making so many new friends through today’s endeavors.
I am ready to dance into the fire on all counts…I have always been a risk taker, but now the Universe and I have a strong bond, and, as I dance, the Universe, keeps playing the music louder and wilder than ever. There are no more containing walls…be warned, there are no more walls, and there is plenty of iced coffee!
THERE IS MUCH IN MY LIFE THAT HAS LED TO REALLY STRONG FEARS WHICH I HAVE SOUGHT TO FREE MYSELF FROM OVER THE LAST YEARS.
EASTER SUNDAY 2015 WAS NO DIFFERENT. EASTER AS A SMBOLIC NEW BEGINNING, RISING FROM THE DEAD, RISING FROM THE ASHES, RISING FROM THE FEAR…
EASTER 2015 WAS THE SIXTH ANNIVERSARY OF THE CLOSING OF ST. PETER’S CHURCH IN CLEVELAND BY THE CLEVELAND DIOCESE. IT WAS ALSO THE FIFTH ANNIVERSARY OF THE COMMUNITY OF ST. PETER, WHICH RESULTED FROM THE MIGRATION OF MANY FROM ST. PETER’S TO THE COMMUNITY OF ST. PETER. WHILE I HAD BEEN AN ORIGINAL MEMBER, THE LAST FEW YEARS SAW ME NOT ACTIVE, UNTIL YESTERDAY. IT WAS A HOMECOMING FOR ME, AND I LEFT MY HOME BEFORE 10:30 AM TO ATTEND EASTER SERVICES AT THE COMMUNITY OF ST. PETER.
IT WAS ALL GOOD.
AFTERWARDS I DROPPED OFF A CARE PACKAGE FOR A FRIEND, AND RAN A FEW ERRANDS BEFORE RETURNING HOME.
LOOKING FORWARD TO PEACE AND QUIET ON MY DECK SINCE SONS AND FAMILIES WERE IN FLORIDA.
THE PEACE AND QUIET WAS SHORT-LIVED AS I PULLED INTO MY GARAGE NOTING ALL OF THE CARS AT MY NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS. MY THOUGHT WAS THEY WERE HAVING A LARGE EASTER GATHERING UNTIL I NOTICED THEIR DAMAGED GARAGE DOOR AND OUR MAINTENANCE MANAGER WORKING ON IT, AND THEN I WALKED INTO MY HOME TO THE ACRID SMELL OF EXHAUST AND SMOKE!
WALKING BACK OUT TO SEEK THE STATE OF AFFAIRS HERE…THERE HAD BEEN A GARAGE FIRE NEXT DOOR. OVER THE NEXT HOURS, I LEARNED THAT IT WAS NOT MECHANICAL OR ELECTRICAL AND THAT THE FIRE DEPARTMENT AND THE POLICE DEPARTMENT AND THE PROPERTY MANAGER WERE ALL IN AND OUT OF MY HOME TO DETERMINE THE DAMAGE TO MY HOME. THEY HAD BEEN TRYING TO REACH ME BUT BECAUSE I WAS DRIVING I TURNED OFF THE RINGER ON MY PHONE. IGNORANCE HAD TRULY BEEN BLISS!
WHILE THE LEARNING THAT OCCURRED WAS SIMPLE: SMOKE DAMAGE WHEN MINOR CAN BE REMEDIED IN A LITTLE OVER 24 HOURS OF FRESH AIR; WHAT THIS BROUGHT BACK UP TO ME (AND AS I WRITE THIS IT IS SYNCHRONISTIC THAT “BREATHE” IS PLAYING ON THE LOCAL RADIO STATION) WAS MY LIFELONG FEAR OF FIRE. LIFELONG IS EXAGGERATING SINCE THIS HAPPENED WHEN I WAS LESS THAN 3 YEARS OLD.
MY BIRTHDAY CAKE WENT UP IN FLAMES AND I WAS CARRIED FROM THE INFERNO BY AN AUNT WHO TOLD ME TO BREATHE THE FRESH AIR WHEN WE REACHED THE OUTSIDE PORCH! MY MOTHER IN ALL HER EFFORTS LIT THE CANDLES ON MY CAKE TO THE TUNE OF THE FLYING BIRDS ON THE CAKE TOPPER ORNAMENT! AND UP IN FLAMES WENT EVERYTHING! IT HAS STAYED WITH ME THAT FIRE IS POWERFUL AND FEAR OF FIRE HAS STAYED WITH ME EVER SINCE THAT DAY!
IT DID NOT HELP THAT MY TOWNHOUSE NEIGHBORS IN COLUMBUS LEFT A CANDLE BURNING IN THEIR FAMILY ROOM AND WENT TO SLEEP FOR THE NIGHT…FIRE! FIRE THAT DESTROYED THEIR WHOLE CONDO!
SO FIRE IS NOT SOMETHING I TREAT LIGHTLY!
YES, IT IS 24 HOURS LATER, AND THE ACRID SMELL IS DIMINISHING, BUT THE FEAR OF FIRE IS STILL WITHIN ME.
AS I HAVE WORKED ON ALL OF MY FEARS ONE BY ONE, YESTERDAY FOUND ME CALM AND COLLECTED AND LOGICAL.
YES, I TOOK DOZENS OF PHOTOS ON MY I PHONE TO HAVE AN UPDATE INVENTORY OF ALL OF MY BELONGINGS. TECHNOLOGY MADE IT QUICK, AND I WILL WORK TO EXPAND ON THE PHOTOS.
FEAR CAN BE OVERCOME IN MANY WAYS…
OVERCOMING MY FEAR OF LACK OF MONEY HAS REALLY CHANGED MY TOTAL LIFE, AND THAT IS WHAT I WORK WITH ALL OF MY CLIENTS TO ACCOMPLISH. MONEY, LIKE FIRE, CAN BE VERY GOOD, WHEN USED WITH LOGIC. IT CAN ALSO BE VERY BAD WHEN CULTURE, MEMORIES, AND MORE CREATE FEAR.
YES, EASTER IS A NEW BEGINNING…ONE MORE FEAR OVERCOME BY FACING IT HEAD ON…