My mantra about money and energy is that everything is related to money, and everything is related to energy! This blog is definitely about money for whenever I am not well my productivity as a solo entrepreneur plummets. Whenever my voice is shaky because of a cough or a tickle in my throat, I cannot do program narrative or do phone calls with clients and potential clients. That costs money!
So, as I woke up at 4 am this morning with the “tickle”, I went to work online doing my research not only how to get rid of it quickly but also to Louise Hay and her excellent work on linking physical ailments to emotional issues. I resort to Louise quickly whenever things are not feeling “right”. I am not paranoid, I am a believer in metaphysical and emotional connections.
In late 2017, I spent a good deal of time with calendars matching up five upper respiratory events that occurred in 2017, and learn I did! There was a common thread linking my siblings to the events. Without going into detail here, I have not seen them until Easter, and two days later the upper respiratory event began with a cold. Then my voice was disappearing and more…
I am about to share my awakening from this morning to demonstrate what happens when lifelong emotional issues are considered to be normal occurrences. I am about to reverse my life because I have three decades plus to live, and I do not want to continue this pattern.
While a child, I had no knowledge of the type of information Louise Hay provided. As an adult, I use traditional medicine only as a reference base; my preferred providers are intuitives and naturopaths. And me! I have learned through the intuitives and naturopaths to listen to my body, and I do!
Quite common when I grew up was the removal of tonsils in small children. At the age of five, I joined that club because of strep thread occurring before then. However, the strep throat illnesses continued. Then came the bronchitis events. Even to the point of needing an inhaler as a young adult. At the age of 25, my gall bladder was removed in an emergency procedure. Endometriosis took over my life in my late 20’s. I was a walking disaster in my mind. I had no idea why my health was so poor. I was uneducated at that time.
Now, without sharing the details of a truly dysfunctional family–generations not just my family, here in short terms are the emotional issues for the illnesses I have shared:
Tonsils, throat issues: fear of speaking up, sharing my feelings, looking for my voice in life.
Bronchitis: an inflamed family situation.
Gall Bladder: Unexpressed emotions tied to bitterness, hard thoughts, condemning or hurt pride. This is seething anger.
Endometriosis: old beliefs preventing me from creating what I want in my life. Disappointed, frustration, depleted, unsupported, ungrounded, and rejecting my feminine aspect because of feelings of rejection from the men in my family.
Yes, there is total truth in all of this. I was brought up to be “quiet” and not share my feelings. My life was overshadowed by a narcissist mother and an acquiescing father. There is so much here that I now understand. I take responsibility for allowing myself to be overtaken by my familial background, but it is never too late. I am taking care of me to the uptime extreme starting today. More than I have ever done. With the recurrence of the upper respiratory situation this week after four months of no exposure to siblings until Easter Sunday, I no longer have any doubts that my relationship with them, while on the surface good, has no depth to it. I am not comfortable sharing my mission and passion with them, and I am still frustrated by that. I am ready, finally, to recognize that this relationship is toxic.
The energy is toxic. It affects my mission and passion; it affects my livelihood. I share so that others can learn to recognize that health problems have an emotional component that can be a hindrance to health and energy…and money. It is never too late.