WHILE IT IS A MAY SATURDAY, THE RAIN AND THE CLOUDS AWAKENED ME AND HAVE KEPT ME COMPANY ALL DAY! THERE HAS BEEN NO SUN, VERY LITTLE WIND, JUST CALM AND CLOUDS AND RAIN. IT IS RARE THAT I AM NOT UNDER A DEADLINE FOR THE DAY OR FOR THE COMING WEEK, BUT TODAY WAS ONE OF THOSE DAYS. IT WAS WHAT I WORKED TOWARD THE LAST FEW DAYS. REALLY GETTING THINGS DONE INCLUDING THE MUNDANE…WASHING MY CAR AND PICKING UP GROCERIES. SLEEP WAS A FULL 10 HOURS WITH ONLY ONE TIME AWAKENED FOR THE CALL OF NATURE. RESTED AND RESTLESS…WHAT DO I WANT TO DO TODAY. IT WAS NOT A MORNING FOR THE BEACH AND BEACHGLASS SEARCHING. THE SAND WOULD HAVE BEEN PURE MUCK1 so a healthy breakfast and an attempt to undo the upstairs windows to clean them for the first time in about 2 years. success…i got them undone, cleaned, and put back together. clean windows are good for my soul. then threw on some clothes and went out and weeded the front flower area and the bed where the large grasses grow by the deck
WEEDS ARE UNSETTLING TO ME…A SIGN THAT SOMEONE JUST DOES NOT CARE ABOUT THE HEALTHY PLANTS. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN BOTHERSOME BECAUSE I HAVE LEFT THE DANDELIONS FOR THE BEES..NOW THEIR BLOOMS ARE GONE AND THEIR REMAINING STEMS ARE JUST PLAIN UGLY! SO WINDOWS CLEANED, WEEDS BE GONE, AND TIME FOR A SHOWER….STILL RESTLESS. SO THERE ARE THREE MOVIES FROM THE LIBRARY. “ELSA AND FRED” WAS MY FIRST CHOICE TO WATCH. IT IS VERY IRONIC FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME WHO NEVER HAD OVERDUE ITEMS FROM THE LIBRARY. IT HELPS THAT BECAUSE I HAVE AN OHIO GOLDEN BUCKEYE CARD THAT I NEVER HAVE TO PAY FINES FOR OVERDUE ITEMS. BUT ELSA AND FRED IS ALL ABOUT SENIORS IN A RELATIONSHIP…I WANTED TO WATCH IT BUT KEPT PUTTING IT OFF…COULD BECAUSE FRED IS 80 AND ELSA IS 74…TOO CLOSE TO WHERE I AM IN MY AGE NOW…BUT I DID WATCH IT, NAD IT WAS TOUCHING! then i wanted some comedy with “identity thief” but the dvd player keeps rejecting it, so i put in the latest james bond movie “sky fall” and that is out because of the way too casual sex that is so outdated. that film had to do with growing older as well–bond was aging and did not even pass the test to be fit for service. give me a break! so now i am blogging, still restless…so i am practicing “balance”–too much work creates a stale state within me, too low on cash flow to go out and mindlessly spend money–that has never been my style!
TIMES LIKE THESE ARE TRANSITION TIMES FOR ME…I AM READY TO ENTER INTO A NEW STATE OF TRANSFORMATION. THE NESTING–CAR WASHING, GROCERY SHOPPING, WEEDPULLING, WINDOW CLEANING, LAUNDRY DONE, BATHROOMS CLEANED, TRASH OUT–is all symptomatic. i am back to meditating without guided meditations. the cash flow is sufficient day by day (and for an entrepreneur, that is good!). i am content with family. TRANSFORMATION IS UPON ME, AND THIS IS NOT THE FIRST NOR THE LAST TIME THIS WILL HAPPEN. IT IS A TIME FOR ME TO JUST BE, AND I AM!